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Regine Elago | Filipino | Nineteen | 5'4 | BSIT | Scholar | Fatimanian | Singer | Aquarius | God's Follower | Blogger

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I Post all the things I'm interested to and also I express my thoughts & undefined feelings here. Live with me here. YOLO!





I JUST REALIZED I WOKE UP IN THIS STUPID DREAM.

Haters gonna hate hate hate #SHAKEITOFF

Feels Like Two Worlds Apart.

Hindi nya lang alam, parang namimiss ko sya pero pinipigilan ko lang ang sarili ko.

Sa tingin ko ito na ang simula ng paglayo ng damdamin namin sa isa’t-isa. Nakakaramdam na kasi ako ng pagbabago. Kung ano man yung dahilan nya… Nakakalungkot man pero kailangang tanggapin.

Yung dati nyang habit, hindi na nya ginagawa ngayon. E ako masyadong nagpakaattach sa kanya at sa mga ginawa nya. Kahit ayoko, hindi ko pa din to maiwasan.

It feels like we’re two worlds apart.

Aug. 14

THURSDAY - 10:24 PM

Sa mga nangyari ngayong araw na to, narealize ko lang na tama ngang wag ko muna itong ituloy. Ayoko munang ipaubaya ang damdamin ko sa kanya. Sa tingin ko naman sa mga inakto nya kanina, madali nya ako isantabi. Kaya naman pala nyang tumingin sa ibang babae at gawin nya sa kanila yung mga ginawa nya sakin. Tutal kaya pala medyo naging cold sya kanina is because may katext syang iba.

Lord bakit ganun? Kung kailan nagbago na yung isip ko saka naman lumihis yung tadhana? Nung una sinabi ko sa sarili ko na ayoko nang ituloy yung paunti-unting feelings para sa kanya kasi wala naman idudulot to (nag-assume ako opo). Pero nung biglang nagbago ulit yung isip ko saka naman ako nahihirapang mareach sya kasi nga may mga bagay na feeling ko mas makakapagpasaya sa kanya. Yan yung napansin ko kanina sa office. Ewan ko kung pinagseselos nya ako or talagang ewan. Haay buhay parang life.

Bakit kasi parang galit ako? Ni kanina nga pagbaba ko ng van ni hindi ko man lang sya nilingon at nagsabi ng ‘thank you at babye’. Bandang teresa na ako nakatulog sa balikat nya kasi busy sya katetext. Babae katext nya panigurado, ang ingay ng ringtone nya eh. Maya’t-maya na lang nagwawala.

Sabi nila wag kang gagawa ng desisyon kapag galit ka. Pero itong desisyon ko ay para sa ikabubuti ko lamang. Ayoko muling mahulog sa maling tao, lalo na’t hindi pa ako sigurado sa nararamdaman nya or sa pakay nya sakin. Ayoko din muna na pumasok sa isang relasyon, (malay natin).. kasi I want to prioritize first my studies.


Sakin lang, mas mabuti kung iwasan ko na lang sya kasi baka mamaya, hindi ko na mapigilan yung damdamin ko. Ayoko na po ng ganun, pakiusap. Gusto ko na syang dedmahin. Wala akong pakialam kung magtaka yung ibang tao. Gusto ko to eh. This is my life so no one must interfere with my business.

FEELING KO NAKAHALATA SYA KANINA KAYA WALA SYA GAANONG GINAWA. PARANG LUMALAYO NA YUNG FEELING NYA SAKIN. BUT HE ACTED ONLY LIKE A GENTLEMAN THO AND I STILL APPRECIATED IT.

Aug. 11

His treatment on me was like he’s my boyfriend. :’) I suddenly feel lots of butterflies who try to escape inside my stomach. The physical contact is getting higher. I was really surprised when he saw me sleeping, then he moved my head towards his shoulders and wrapped my arms around his. He touches my hands from time to time which made my heart beats faster. He lean his head towards my sleeping head. I don’t really know his intention but at this moment, I wanna feel and experience something different that I hadn’t experienced before. I’m already nineteen and I don’t wanna get stuck on being alone. I just wanna be happy with him, EVEN JUST FOR A WHILE. I know this is only a dream which I know on the right time I am required to wake up and be back in reality.

So please, don’t wake me up so easily.

Taylor on 5th era

Saturday - August 8, 2014: 8:26 am

Currently riding in a bus, connected to wifi while on my way to school. Yes, may pasok kami eh. Walang pahinga ajujuju. XD

Well anyways, let’s go to the main part. Since nasa mood ako, may gusto akong ishare. Haha naiisip ko pa lang sasabihin ko parang I feel my heart flutters.

Oo, simula ata kahapon medyo nagiging abnormal itong pagbeat ni heart. I always take a deep breath na lang para mawala, pero bumabalik pa din after few moments. Hindi ko pa to sigurado pero pinipilit ko na lang pigilan ang bugso ng damdamin ko kasi hindi ko talaga maiiwasan na may parte sakin na nag-iisip ng What-Ifs.

Itong buong linggo kasi bigla akong nakaexperince ng bagay na hindi ko pa nararanasan dati: yung may isang lalaki sa tabi mo na nakapagentleman, ubod ng caring at talagang feeling mo safe ka sa kanya. And there are instances na nagkakaroon kami ng physical attractions na sa part ko.. first time ko tong naencounter. Sa una nakakabigla, pero sa mga sumusunod na instances, parang wala lang samin yun. Minsan sya pa nag-ooffer sakin na tumungo ako sa shoulder nya. Minsan sya din yung nagpapatong ng braso ko sa braso nya which the tendency is I accidentally wrapped my arms around his. Nandun na tayo eh, so sulitin ko na. Ang ginagawa ko na lang after is I hold his arms tighter.

Sa totoo lang, masarap yun sa pakiramdam. Hindi lang dahil sa first time ko, kundi pakiramdam ko someone is there to take care of me. Ang bait nya, tapos maasikaso pa sya. Hindi ko talaga maiiwasan na magkaroon ng konting pagtingin sa kanya. Pero s part nya, di ko pa din sigurado kaya ayoko munang mag-isip ng iba pang bagay.
Info Alchemy Family. :)  (at AIC Burgundy Empire Tower, Ortigas)
Recently got home. Roadtest mode with day + Drivethru at Mcdo = Stress Free :) #pajero

FIRST.

That temporary dream. I passionately felt like heaven but I still can control the butterflies in my stomach.

Wednesday: August 6, 2014 - 10:07 PM

Got arrived home few moments ago. Kagagaling ko lang sa OJT at kasabay ko sya pauwi. Napakawarm ng feeling ko kanina. Komportable at pansamantalang dumagundong ang puso ko.

First time kong makaencounter ng ganito: Yung hindi na ako naiilang kapag may kasama akong lalaki. Sa totoo lang madalas kaming magkasabay pauwi at sya pa ang nagyayaya sakin. And we frequently talk comfortably. Kung ano yung gusto kong sabihin ay nasasabi ko kaagad ng hindi nag-aalinlangan. I guess I’m getting more matured now. I hope so.

And to think we start to understand each other: his circumstances at work. I accept that even he apologized, it’s just fine for me to wait for him at work. I understand his situation as employee. Tulad nung kanina, nag-out ako sa office ng 6:20 while I waited for him until 7pm. He was really sorry but I still joked him na kunwari umuwi na ako pero ginulat ko sya. Gumanti naman sya pagkatapos. 

Then after that on our way home, I felt really sleepy and he comforted me a lot. We leaned at each other. Tapos hawak pa nya yung bag ko kasi mabigat daw. Then, I slept on his shoulder while his head leans on mine. Then he put his arms on top of my arms then later he hold my arms which I accidentally wrapped my arms around his. I couldn’t sleep really much because of the current feeling I’m into right now. But I just enjoyed the moment as we are like that. Hindi ako naiilang, sa totoo lang ang sarap ng ganung pakiramdam. The last word he said before I rode off the van is, "Bukas na lang ha."… which I assumed that we must see each other, again.

I don’t wanna expect anything but whatever happens in the future, he will be my FIRST.

Happy Sunday! #Family (at Saint Joseph Parish, Baras, Rizal)